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adorable [03 Jul 2006|01:09am] wooooooooow. i havent updated in forever. things are amazing. i have two roomates now, kelsey and dennis who are my absolute bestfriends ever. i love living with them. i'm finally starting to be happy again. i'm not bitter anymore, i've moved on with my life, you're still not allowed to mention certain words in my house, but hey i'll get over it in time. i have some amazing friends. seriously. i moved back to grosse pointe park. i so belong here. never again will i live in macomb county. jesus. thats about it. over and out 1 photographer ♥ strike a pose

[16 Jan 2006|05:40pm] In the past 8 months i have let three people into my life. who have fucked me over. this past time was the absolute worst though. my heart hurts so badly right now. but not as much as my head. i just keep thinking that no one is ever going to measure up to mario, so i keep meeting this fucking assholes, and lowing my standards. i really did care for him though. he made me happy. i dont know whats going to happen. the police can't find him. my parents won't let me go home until they find him. 3 photographers ♥ strike a pose

[27 Dec 2005|09:12pm] things are fucked up. i want my life back. i want him back. 3 photographers ♥ strike a pose

[13 Dec 2005|07:19pm] so things are going alright. i wish i was going to california for christmas. this is the first year in forever that i'm not going. i havent been doing a lot lately. on saturday i was going to straighten my hair for work, and i picked it up, and i guess i left it on the day before cause it burnt the shit out of my finger. i mean like, way bad. my skin totally liquified. its the most disgusting thing i've ever seen, and has not stopped hurting. on top of that i am getting sick. i cannot swallow. it's making me angry. all of that, plus working my shitty retail job during the holidays...jesus i want to kill myself. i havent seen anyone in a while. i miss angie and crystal and brad, and stacy. i've been too lazy to call anyone. sorry guys. things with me and doug are blah. i decided that i wanted to take a few steps backwards with him. i know i'm still hung up on mario. i can't even bring myself to call him because it hurts so bad. i would drop everything if he said he wanted me to move there. i know things were really shitty, but this past 7 months have taught me so much. i know we had our bad times. but i know how much i love him, it seems like im never going to have that ever again. i really screwed things up. strike a pose

[07 Dec 2005|01:05am] ive been questioning my decisions a lot lately. i know im not as happy as i could be. i know that in my heart, deep down i really love mario, and want to be with him. i made my decision though, and there's no going back. if i have to live with that the rest of my life, i will. 1 photographer ♥ strike a pose

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